Saying hello
I've been getting like tons of comments that my Blog is getting to be majorly depressing and sad. Especially with reference to my last few posts. People say that it sorta reflects on me and shows that I am a more solemn and melancholy sort of person. But its not true! I'm not some bipolar schizophrenic manic depressive monday blue glass-half-empty kind of a guy. Or am I? I don't know really. I'm both I suppose. I can be extremely vibrant and outgoing, cheerful happy and lively. Hmm...maybe I am a bipolar schizophrenic. Jeez I hate modern psychology. Hehehe...but I know I'm not. Its just recently that I've begin feeling really down. And the funny thing is that its not just me. I know of like a lot of people that are feeling really depressed and bored and lonely and just generally pissed off. Its true! I noticed this long ago in fact. Its a sign of our times. We are no longer satisfied with the meaningless lives we are forced to live. Humans derive order out of chaos, then we get bored and blow shit up just to make more chaos to order. Right now, everything is all fine and dandy, there are increasingly boring crappy challenges, so as humans, we purposely screw things over so that we have something to work on and busy ourselves with.
Every good government and military leader knows that peace breeds war and war breeds peace. Our spirits as the adventurers, explorers and fighters on the edge are demanding some awe. Science has so calmly and subtly removed all that we are too hold in respect and worship. We are all children of God. God made us. Uh uh! No, you're little evolutionary accidents. You're DNA and proteins. You evolved by natural selection! Aww hell no Mr Scientist. Shove it! You explain the how. But you never ever explain the why. The what for. You all think in stupid little tunnel visions. Our physical and mental states are evolving and changing way too much faster than our spirits are. Thats not a good thing. A human without a spirit is a car moving at 100km/h without a driver. And for its right now, its not just one car. Its our highway of driverless speeding cars. Go figure. You know why children go to schools with machine guns and kill other kids? Cause it gives them purpose. Its a moment to live in total glory and control. Where they're spirit is free to roam and be alive. You condition our minds but you never help our souls. God is all around us but we fail to see God. You know why you get depressed and feel like dying? Cause its what your soul wants to do. Its not being expressed. Its being starved.
I don't really know what I'm driving at. I'm just typing as the emotions flow. But basically...what I'm trying to say is...we need awe. How many people have you seen that can just ignore a jumbojet take off or soar above them? Have you seen it I mean? All that power and glory. It holds us in awe. Or have you seen the Queen Elizabeth II. Its a bloody big ship. And when people see it off the harbour, they just stop and go like, Wow. Its not surprise. Its wonder. Its awe. Right now, I'm heeding that call. I can smell its scent in the air. The scent of adventure. We can't find God because we are behind the walls of society. I know most of you are really spiritual church going folk. You go to church, you pray, you're all really really nice people. They do not wish to use spiritual power in order to serve. The act of entering and working in the workshop of Divine Providence is totally beyond them. Being committed to devotion and purity, they renounce knowledge and the wisdom acquired through direct experience. Their minds are hermetically sealed. They have closed their eyes and their ears and that is ok with me. Sabotaging one’s mind—this is a small price to pay in order to embrace a loving community. Open your mind and you may well find yourself surrounded by wonders and ecstasies but also by monsters and horrors that others cannot dream.
But how many of you have really found God? I don't half of you are looking for God even. Its all nice to go to church and play the little game. Go there, meet your friends, have fun, be nice people. But frankly, its not for me. I've done it. I didn't find God. Heh..even now, I am not really looking for God. I know God's there. No doubt about that in my mind. I'm looking for myself. Poor poor Jeremy. He can't leave anything alone. He's the kinda guy that sees a red button marked "Please for the sake of the universe and god and your loved ones, don't press this god damned button". Press. D'oh! He's the sorta guy you see in shows that goes and pokes a sleeping bear. The kind of guy you frequently hear saying, "Hmmm, I wonder if this hurts?" Dumbass. Well I need my dosage of awe and power.
"If you want achievement and personal satisfaction, it is sufficient
to be a moral person who is devote and righteous. With this attitude, you
can succeed in life without having to cross an abyss of doubt and
insecurity. If you want a life full of me aning and happiness, then stay
within the boundaries set by your religion and culture."
"Your society will tell you all you need to know to be an honorable and accomplished
individual. The problem is that too much self-understanding is dangerous
and, in t he long run, counterproductive. Looking deeply into yourself
can only undermine your ties to society and your connections to your
friends and lovers."
"I do not touch the sacred in order to feel more alive. When the
sacred comes into your life, it destroys your identity and takes from you
the life you thought you knew so well. There is a dark gulf separating
the person you know yourself to be and the spiritual being waiting to be born within you. In every wisdom tradition this realization is the first step you must take in order to celebrate the mysteries."
"The great mystics in every religion know this experience can not be
reshaped, reduced, or reinterpreted. They have tried and failed and that
is why we consider them somewhat different from everyone else--they trade
their peer group and support netw ork for an inner vision they have found
within themselves. As a matter of fact, when the sacred enters your life,
it does not fulfill but runs counter to the dreams, the needs, and the
psychological paradigms of your culture."
Every good government and military leader knows that peace breeds war and war breeds peace. Our spirits as the adventurers, explorers and fighters on the edge are demanding some awe. Science has so calmly and subtly removed all that we are too hold in respect and worship. We are all children of God. God made us. Uh uh! No, you're little evolutionary accidents. You're DNA and proteins. You evolved by natural selection! Aww hell no Mr Scientist. Shove it! You explain the how. But you never ever explain the why. The what for. You all think in stupid little tunnel visions. Our physical and mental states are evolving and changing way too much faster than our spirits are. Thats not a good thing. A human without a spirit is a car moving at 100km/h without a driver. And for its right now, its not just one car. Its our highway of driverless speeding cars. Go figure. You know why children go to schools with machine guns and kill other kids? Cause it gives them purpose. Its a moment to live in total glory and control. Where they're spirit is free to roam and be alive. You condition our minds but you never help our souls. God is all around us but we fail to see God. You know why you get depressed and feel like dying? Cause its what your soul wants to do. Its not being expressed. Its being starved.
I don't really know what I'm driving at. I'm just typing as the emotions flow. But basically...what I'm trying to say is...we need awe. How many people have you seen that can just ignore a jumbojet take off or soar above them? Have you seen it I mean? All that power and glory. It holds us in awe. Or have you seen the Queen Elizabeth II. Its a bloody big ship. And when people see it off the harbour, they just stop and go like, Wow. Its not surprise. Its wonder. Its awe. Right now, I'm heeding that call. I can smell its scent in the air. The scent of adventure. We can't find God because we are behind the walls of society. I know most of you are really spiritual church going folk. You go to church, you pray, you're all really really nice people. They do not wish to use spiritual power in order to serve. The act of entering and working in the workshop of Divine Providence is totally beyond them. Being committed to devotion and purity, they renounce knowledge and the wisdom acquired through direct experience. Their minds are hermetically sealed. They have closed their eyes and their ears and that is ok with me. Sabotaging one’s mind—this is a small price to pay in order to embrace a loving community. Open your mind and you may well find yourself surrounded by wonders and ecstasies but also by monsters and horrors that others cannot dream.
But how many of you have really found God? I don't half of you are looking for God even. Its all nice to go to church and play the little game. Go there, meet your friends, have fun, be nice people. But frankly, its not for me. I've done it. I didn't find God. Heh..even now, I am not really looking for God. I know God's there. No doubt about that in my mind. I'm looking for myself. Poor poor Jeremy. He can't leave anything alone. He's the kinda guy that sees a red button marked "Please for the sake of the universe and god and your loved ones, don't press this god damned button". Press. D'oh! He's the sorta guy you see in shows that goes and pokes a sleeping bear. The kind of guy you frequently hear saying, "Hmmm, I wonder if this hurts?" Dumbass. Well I need my dosage of awe and power.
"If you want achievement and personal satisfaction, it is sufficient
to be a moral person who is devote and righteous. With this attitude, you
can succeed in life without having to cross an abyss of doubt and
insecurity. If you want a life full of me aning and happiness, then stay
within the boundaries set by your religion and culture."
"Your society will tell you all you need to know to be an honorable and accomplished
individual. The problem is that too much self-understanding is dangerous
and, in t he long run, counterproductive. Looking deeply into yourself
can only undermine your ties to society and your connections to your
friends and lovers."
"I do not touch the sacred in order to feel more alive. When the
sacred comes into your life, it destroys your identity and takes from you
the life you thought you knew so well. There is a dark gulf separating
the person you know yourself to be and the spiritual being waiting to be born within you. In every wisdom tradition this realization is the first step you must take in order to celebrate the mysteries."
"The great mystics in every religion know this experience can not be
reshaped, reduced, or reinterpreted. They have tried and failed and that
is why we consider them somewhat different from everyone else--they trade
their peer group and support netw ork for an inner vision they have found
within themselves. As a matter of fact, when the sacred enters your life,
it does not fulfill but runs counter to the dreams, the needs, and the
psychological paradigms of your culture."
posted by Jeremy at
11:54 AM
1 Comments:
hmm.. i think you sort of got the idea right.. the denying oneself and then taking up the cross. hmm.. God is not someone to be made sense of.. thats why He's God.
let me try to show you my pt of view.. God din make us cos He needs us.. but for us to have that relationship with Him. suffering serves the purpose of appreciating the good..
i guess in every worst case scenario no matter how badly man wants to twarp this plan.. it is still part of God's plan.. and there always is a greater meaning to it all.. its just us. humans. short-sighted and impatient by "nature".
its all good and easy to say "just take it easy God's in-charge.." the hard part is actually letting God really take charge. don't you agree? cos we are always rushing God.. "step up with it will ya~ im in a major hurry Lord" and it pisses people off when they dun get what They Want. so they say God's being lazy and not doing His job.. when in actual fact we're just not being patient.
doo doo doo.. do i make sense? oh well.. lets not forget God does discipline us.. like a Father to His child.. im still lacking.. but i take pride in Him whom i belong. *wink*
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