mon ami

its been a long time my friend
minutes to hours
hours to days
days to weeks
and months to years
how quickly time flies
whether you are having fun
or not
now i stand here
where we stood once
smiles on our faces
covered in mud and grit
but we stood nonetheless
as i stand here, i remember
for that is all i can do
those times are gone
never to be seen again
the grass has grown
the walls long crumbled
i still expect to see you
come walking around the corner
but it never happens
wherever you may be
whatever you're doing
i hope life has treated you well
its been a long time my friend.

shh

shhhhhh
your so beautiful
but i can't say anything
all the words just
die in my throat
the silence pervaded
filling everything around us
the gaps and holes
all that is left
is me and you
standing hand in hand
in the cold moonlight
looking, just looking
into your big brown eyes
your silky brown hair
the warm nape of your neck
i move in for our first kiss
your soft pink lips
against mine
but you'll never hear
me say these things to you
say how much i want you
that each moment with you
is absolute joy
and at the same time
complete pain
because you'll never know